terms of endearment

i just had this random thought of some things i like...i was running my fingers through my hair ( i just dyed it yesterday so the conditioner that comes with the dye makes it really soft) and thinking how much i like people to play with my hair. and i was thinking about how some guys like to play with girls hair, but how david doesnt. he's not a very cuddly-touchy person.

once when we were dating and he lived in fullerton, i had triple barrel waved my hair and we were watching tv on the couch. I was lying toward him, probably falling asleep, and he had started to stroke my head. that was the only time he's ever done that, at least without me begging him to. every once in a while i think of that day and it makes me smile.

the second or third time we hung out, and this was before we started dating, we were at tgifridays and playing the question game. basically someone asks a question and everyone answers. it was my turn so he turned to me and said, what about you, sweetheart?
and that is the only time he's ever called me sweetheart, which is my favorite term of endearment.

my love

i've had these lyrics stuck in my head for a week.

The mere idea of you, the longing here for you
You'll never know how slow the moments go till I'm near to you
I see your face in every flower
Your eyes in stars above
It's just the thought of you
The very thought of you, my love

i like the second line the best.
is it possible to fall MORE in love with your husband than you were in before? yes, it is, it turns out.

lessons learned

we're having some hard times, struggling with money and fun stuff like that. the good thing is that what once cause arguments has helped to bring us closer together. at the beginning of our marriage we really had a hard time figuring each other out. we didn't know how to act and react to each other's emotions, outbursts, spending habits...so we would blow up. we've learned a lot in these 3 years of marriage.

i've calmed, relaxed, de-stressed or at least begun to learn how to
he's learned responsibility, that certain things matter that maybe didn't before

basically he's started caring more and i've started caring less. we're getting through to one another.

he's in love and he says love is fine

been listening to best of paul mccartney...love that he included his wife in his band, wings, and that they got to go on tour together. this love lasted a long time.



i also like this album cover because of the little hiding baby :)


love isn't silly at all

ron howard

on saturday morning we watched an a & e special on ron howard. i loved everything about his life, the way his parents raised him and his brother (put all of their tv earnings into the bank) and how he raised his own family by limiting how many films he worked on and bringing them with him to ireland to film far and away.
on a part of the show involving an interview with his oldest daughter, she expressed her admiration for her parent's relationship claiming that they were 'soul mates'.

In the June 2006 issue of Vanity Fair magazine, Ron Howard was asked, "What do you consider your greatest achievement?" He replied, "Forty-eight consecutive years of steady employment in television and film, while preserving a rich family life."

i love an honest man of integrity


i get on wikipedia kicks where i'll research an individual...i love it

lonely days

i didn't see my husband yesterday. is that weird? yes, it is. i don't remember the last time i went a day without seeing him. i guess i'm spoiled.

tonight will involve me and clementine watching pride and prejudice, alone, and tomorrow morning will involve sleeping in, cleaning the house, and shopping for a tart pan and the ingredients for a strawberry cream tart.

i have to do SOMETHING to occupy myself while he's gone.

love him

only in dreams

natalie: last night i had a dream that i was pregnant with twins

david: last night i had a dream that i was batman

wear something slutty

Natalie Fenni already got gas so we can leave as soon as i get home. --
1:46 PM (5 minutes ago)


David FennI didn't know you still knew how to get gas
1:48 PM (3 minutes ago)


Natalie Fenn oh you
1:49 PM (2 minutes ago)



Zoom zoom zoom
David Fenn to me
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i want you to bear my children and i dont care if they are boys or girls

something about the scene when he comes to take her away- the line he says about her bearing his children- i think it's one of the sexiest things a man could say.

i'm weird.

v-day

the good news is i accomplished half of those goals below. the bad news is i didn't accomplish the hard half.
what would my ideal valentines day involve, you ask?

well, i just noticed that it's on a saturday so that's nice.
i'd make us breakfast in bed with pink heart shaped pancakes.
we'd enjoy a drive together with a picnic lunch.
then we'd go to a movie.
then you'd make me dinner for the first time in years.

i also wouldnt mind that aquamarine necklace, or something from dogeared.com. but those aren't dealbreakers.

curious case

my favorite part of the curious case of benjamin button was the whole period when they lived together. it was exactly, EXACTLY how i pictured the perfect moments of being in love and married to be like before i was actually married. and honestly, its exactly how the perfect moments of being in love and married are.

i had a dream last night

i think this post is similar to the one where i found pictures of david's ex girlfriend. i had this dream last night that david had been married before and happy. it sounds ridiculous and everyone is laughing when i tell them but when i dreamt that and woke up, i gasped. my concern was if i was making him AS happy. this is my real worry

crush

i have a crush on vince vaughn...he's a normal guy. am i weird?

first there is a mountain

having my family here was great but also stressful. i'm so used to it being just the two of us now.
remember when i used to write about how great it would be when we were married? now all i want to write about is how great it will be when we have a baby. i wonder if someday i'll be writing about how great it will be when our kids are grown up and gone, so we're alone again?

true love dont love like anybody else

i feel like once i got married, all my self control went out the window. sometimes i think that everything i worked so hard for had come to me, so maybe i didn't need to try for anything anymore. obviously that's wrong.
kari suggested that i get back to my roots by listening to old music. i want to do all of the things i used to. i can't dwell on the past and keep thinking that things were so much better then, because things were simply different and you can't force anything to be a certain way if it's not.
yesterday i had some down time so i decided to check out old messages that were sent between me and my love oh so long ago. we are awesome! if there's something i can be proud of, it's our love. its so crazy to think of how we were and how we are.
he takes care of me even when i'm in a bad mood, he wants me to be happy
and i know we'll be able to tackle anything because we know each other well

notebook revisited

Love is REAL and LOVELY and just as good as in the notebook. I have it, and so do they in real life.

beehive state

david:"did you like garden state?"

me:"yeah. it's one of your favorites, right?"

"well, it's not as relevant to my life anymore."

"it WAS relevant at some point, though, right?"

"well, not the drug stuff. but the 'finding yourself' part was."

"and it's not anymore?"

"well, i found you."

in all seriousness...my life could be a movie.