fotos

we have the most comfortable bed i've ever slept in. it's absolutely amazing. this morning the last thing my body wanted to do was get out of it.
today we're doing a little photoshoot of the avarells. it'll be good practice for the wedding that's coming up. maybe this will spark more creativity in us.

plans

david came and visited me (and curtis) at work.
i'm making plans for this weekend:

finish sewing curtains and/or pillows.
find passport
buy washer/dryer
relax!

i like to make lists, i always have. i made one over the last week of things i love so here it is:
peach lemonade
babies
waking up on my own
black and white photos
having a flat stomach
video chatting
completely unpacking a box
finding a dress that's long enough
taking a bath
piles of folded, clean laundry
when a band sounds better live
being pregnant on sims
knowing i don't need to have my phone with me to feel comfortable
coming home to a clean house
flower shops
having a job that i enjoy
knowing where i'll be every sunday for the rest of my life
having a gym pass
reading emma for the 10th time
thinking about my wedding day
daydreaming and pretending i'm laura ingalls wilder
thinking about the things i'll teach my kids
seven brides for seven brothers
taking hours to make dinner
you have bewitched me, body and soul
re-reading this blog and realizing that i am clever and i do like myself. i just need to always be that way.

LOVE

i haven't written in this blog in a long time and i don't know if anyone even reads it anymore but suddenly i'm inclined to start up again. what kind of sparked my thoughts, besides actually being employed in a normal job again, was going through david's mission and junk boxes. we looked at mission pictures for a while and he continued to go through the rest of the boxes after i'd gone to bed. this morning in the trash pile i found a pink piece of paper folded into an envelope saying "thanks for the best week ever." inside was a pile of pictures of david and a girl he dated while he was at byu hawaii. he had flown her out there for a week during the semester.
ok, so i'd seen plenty of pictures of them together and of him with other girls but for some reason this time it was different. don't think that i was upset or anything for him still having these pictures- i don't expect him to get rid of anything from his past if he doesn't want to. but something happened as i went through them. i think i was jealous! jealous of how happy he looked and wondering if i make him that happy? and the weird thing is that i've always prided us in our lack of jealousy in our relationship.

so anyway, i'm not upset or bugged by this, i was just surprised how it affected me. and i'm glad about it anyway because it is like a reminder that things should always be good and the bad is fleeting. that we can get through anything (we already pretty much have) and we can enjoy and love eachother in all circumstances. i need to be more positive.
-i LOVE that my husband went on a mission, got hurt, came home and went back out 14 months later. that is him. he's amazing.
-i LOVE that he's ALWAYS in a good mood.
-i LOVE that he is willing to have fun in any situation.
most of all i love that he married me and he believes in me and never gives up on me even when i'm frustrating.

My birthday weekend

Now that we uploaded our pictures from the camera to the computer i can post some of them. These are from our weekend in San Diego. We stayed at the Hyatt in Seaport Village the 23 & 24th of June. It was a ton of fun, since it was our first vacation alone together since our honeymoon. We got there Saturday afternoon and walked around near the ocean. Here's a picture of David in front of the huge ship-
On Sunday we went to breakfast at this awesome mexican place in old town. Then we decided to head over to Cabrillo to see the tide pools and lighthouse.

us

so, it seems as though a lot of people are having their little blogs for letting their families know what's going on in their lives- so i've decided to kind of combine david's and mine together, since he never goes on his anyway. what have we been up to? well, it's been nearly 11 months since we got married. we're moving to a new little rental house soon in the villas here in lake arrowhead that we are VERY excited about. it's a little three bedroom that was just completely remodeled and we love it! we'll be moving in on august 15th and i've already started packing- i can't wait! david is busy building his first house on his own. he's also working towards getting his contractor's license. we're both planning on taking classes this fall at crafton hills college. for the most part we have fun while we're doing all the things we need to everyday-

be here now

haha, it's been three months! good thing no one reads thisssss. so i've been searching for a job pretty much since we moved up here. i've been on plenty of interviews but nothing is seeming to come of it. this morning i was checking my myspace and i noticed that one of my old jobs that my friend had taken when i had quit was going to be available again because she's quitting now...this is ideal, let me tell you. i've been bored out of my mind and been in need of a little spending money and jus something to do. it's perfect! she hasn't emailed me back yet but hopefully she will soon, and with happy news. last night we made homemade cafe rio deliciousness, including homemade tomatillo and cilantro-lime rice. i love food, and i love cooking even more. and as for now, my musical selection includes a lot of bee gees and barry white. and mason, of course.
and we got a new camera...a cannon! still not my dream slr but still a dang good camera anyway. photo posts to come soon.

people are angry

listening to the shins is like having a really really good dream, and then turning it off is like waking up. every time i listen to the shins i think, "yeah, definitely one of my favorite bands". soooo...we're nearly moved in to our new place. living downstairs from your in-laws is an interesting thing, but i'm sure it's gonna work out. well i guess it has to because we're in a one year lease.
im also trying to keep busy getting ready for gourmet girls. it's nice to have something to do. i'm also planning on taking photograpy and american sign language this coming semester at rcc. i'm excited that i'm going to be back in school.david and i bought our first printer ever at best buy with some gift cards we got for christmas and i'm having fun printing out wedding pictures.

this is one of my favorites.

haircuts

so, i did it. finally! i cut off my hair. i had no idea what i wanted to do cut-wise, so i picked a picture and showed the scissor-holder and she cut it all off. its very very short compared to how long it was! i'm still getting used to it.
we're going to move again...out of this house. its too cold and we can't get it above 60 degrees upstairs. plus our landlords are a bit crazy. david's going to do some calling tomorrow. tonight we came down to my parent's house and went out to dinner, played some sequence (a card/board game), and looked through my baby box. i'm so excited that my mom saved some of my baby shoes. mine and remy's baby blessing dress is in there. i'm so excited because i didn't know that we still had it. it's white with little pink rosebuds all over it with a little matching bonnet. there's also a little tiny pink bathing suit with a duck on it.
tomorrow we're helping my mom out with a gourmet girls thing and making a little money doing that. we're also doing that next weekend. tomorrow night is our ward christmas party which should be fun because most likely kollin and brean and glen and kari will be there which means good company with younger couples from the ward and a good chance that i'll get to hold baby kourtney some of the night!
as for now, i'm going to try to sleep in a place other than my house which i'm not used to doing anymore.
p.s. we're still incredibly poor as i am still jobless.
but we're happy and that's really all that matters.

updates

alright so, internet is rarely working at this place which means i spend about 6 hours a day watching food network. as for now, i'm still jobless but it's alright. david is loving working with his hands again, i can tell, because he comes home with sap all over 'em every day. on wednesday he came home with sap in his hair! poor kid.

we're very excited about moving into our own place again, but very grateful to john and jean for letting us stay here for three weeks. tonight we're planning on staying at the apartment and packing up as much as possible, and visiting with my family since we haven't seen them in so long.

last night we had a little barbeque at dustin's and chelsea's where i finally got to hold chloe! that girl sure does like her sleep. david took some really great pictures of her last week but we haven't uploaded them yet. we're both hoping for a super great camera for christmas, that way we can capture chloe at her cutest.

the times they are

a-changin'

this weekend we move ourselves and a few things to david's parent's house for a few weeks until we can move into our new little house. david's getting a truck today, hopefully, and we'll be all set (regardless of the fact that we have negative money).

next week i'll be commuting down the hill for my last week here at work. my job hunt continues. i'm trying to find one where a giant saint bernard won't nudge me while i'm typing. and where i won't have to work on sundays.

i've had mates of state stuck in my head for days. tomorrow is a girl's night but i'm not sure if i should go...am i still a "girl"? next week will be crazy. moving, driving, weddings, babies being born and making me an aunt! soon enough we'll be dressing her up in her little baby ugg boots. chloe, come out!

sooner or later

david just called me and said that his uncle asked him to start working for him on monday. this is a great and exciting thing, and i can tell how happy david is about it. there are just a few problems...

1. david hasn't even mentioned to his work that he's planning on leaving. i KNOW he's going to call them today and say he's done. he hates his job right now. ok, i guess that isn't really a problem.
2. we told the owners of the house we want to rent that we couldn't move in until november 1. they did want us to move in asap, so maybe they'll give us the house.
3. i dont have a job yet.
4. i still have a job here and i told them i'd be here until around the end of october. can i just leave? should i stay here and keep looking for a job?
5. we only have one car as soon as david quits. we have to fix the window on my broken car, and sell it, then find a truck for david.
6. if we end up finding a car, quitting both of our jobs and me getting a new job, we might have to live with david's parents which is no big deal. or we could move into the yellow house, but we'll have to come up with about $2,000.

david's uncle offered him $17 an hour which is pretty nice. plus he'll be doing something he loves. this will work out somehow and i know it will be great. i really needed this. i've been so negative lately but the idea of being where we want so soon is making me happier by the second.

the office

david and i bought the office, season two and watched the whole thing in a few days. all i wanted was for pam and jim to get together. i love this show! there is no way that you could not like it.
so this weekend was so busy, but it felt really long. on friday as soon as i got home from work (david had been home for hours because work is extremely slow right now) we left for up the mountain. after a little rosie's, i went to an interview at the ucla conference center that david's dad had set up for me. as soon as we walked in, the lady at the front desk took one look at david and said, "you've got to be john's son." it's so funny, this whole fenn thing. everyone looks alike and everyone knows a fenn. luckily, now that i'm a fenn, i get to reap the benefits. anyway, i met with her but it was downhill from there. she offered me the job, but it was only part time, 20 hrs a week, and anywhere from 7am to midnight, and every day of the week. i just can't work on sundays. so now i've continued my job search.
as for the house search, we drove around and looked at a couple. we picked up nathan and keith and went to check out a 3 bedroom 3 bathroom that was only $950 a month in Lake arrowhead. no one lived there and it was locked so david climbed over the railing and the slider just happened to be unlocked. this place was hilarious. it was all wood inside, tiny kitchen, and weird living room on the main floor and a full bath, up stairs was a big loft and another bathroom, downstairs was the master but it had no closet and a half bath. it was so strange. we checked out another one but we couldnt get in until the next day. it was nice, 3 bedroom 2 bath, wood floors and nice kitchen except that it didn't have central heating. no. way. we stayed up the whole weekend except for dustin and chelsea's baby shower. it was pretty fun. also, amanda came down and i didnt even know she was coming. on sunday we made a few more calls after church. david dialed one number for a 2 bedrom 1.5 bath that was near the golf course in lake arrowhead (nice area) and the lady answered the phone and said "john?". haha. i guess the lady is a principal at some school and knows david's parents. they came and showed us the house. HOUSE! it's on this amazing street thats nice and wide. the house is yellow with white trim, and has a picket fence on each side. it has a driveway! it has a big living room and decent sized kitchen, and two bedrooms. it has a deck off of the main floor and two little ones off of each bedroom. it has a laundry room! this place is amazing. it's $925 a month, which is $25 more than what we're paying now! i love it. the realtors said that they've had a few applications already but then they said that they talked about how much they loved the fenn family. so pretty much we'll probably get this house because we're fenns. score! now we just have to try to get out of our lease, or come up with $2400 in the month of october.

on the disco, right

my boss at work listens to disco in his office which just happens to be right next to mine. it's funny.
20 more minutes and i get to go home. the past few weeks have been really slow at work. it's nice to get home and have david there (even though he's usually sleeping on the couch instead of cleaning something). he brought me flowers today at work.
soon enough we'll be in the mountains and the smell of fall will be all around. it's going to be so strange to live in a new place. i'm excited for sweaters and fires!

banjos

i really like the banjo. i really, really do.
i like to write in my blog at work because it takes up more time than i realize. and a lot of days i have nothing to do. so i've decided what i want to do with my life. i'm going to go to school to become a librarian. a librarian?! yes. i've wanted to be one since i was little, i would take all of our books and make little cards and check people in and out. when i told my mom that i wanted to be a librarian when i grew up, she said, "librarians don't make any money. they're only volunteers." so i just figured i'd find something else that i wanted to do. but i didn't.
until monday night when my cousin sarah said she's going to be a librarian. she said if you get your masters then you can be a librarian at a university's library. so i told everyone that that was what i was going to do too. so, like 6 more years of college until i can fulfill my dream, and it's not like anything is in my way of achieving this, like not going to school this semester, and david not being done with school, and me planning on having children or anything like that.
we'll see what happens. so, is this what it finally feels like to know what you want to do with your life? (other than be a wife, check. and be a mother, future check.)

just married

alright, kids, we did it! we're married. the entire day went so fast, yet so slowly at the same time. near the end, i just wanted it to be over so i could go to sleep (as you can imagine, that didnt happen) (actually, dont imagine it).
the day was beautiful, somehow the weather cooled down into the 80's just for my wedding because someone knew i couldnt handle taking pictures in the burning hot sun. the temple was amazing...it felt like forever sitting there, though, waiting to be married. our sealer told us he was sealed by joseph fielding smith 58 years earlier. so amazing! the best part of the whole day was holding david's hand, walking into the sealing room and seeing all of our friends and family sitting there, waiting for us. it was ridiculous. during the day i kept picturing that and every time, i got choked up again. then we were married!
our pictures are so crazy. i can't believe that we were lucky enough to find such great photographers. they are my favorite part of the whole wedding.
the reception is a blur and i barely remember anything, but i was so surprised that so many people came.
the honeymoon was fun, it was so nice to relax. but near the end i wanted to go home and start real life with my new husband! i'm so happy to be a fenn now, i love it. everything went better than i could have imagined. now we're just settling in, but trying to find a place in lake arrowhead or crestline so we can move and david can work at something he really wants to do, which is building houses. i'm skipping this semester of school since apparently classes already started. i'll work full time and so will david, and he'll go to school. things are going to just keep getting better, but they're so good now i can't even imagine. im so thankful for david because he takes such good care of me. life is sweet.

aww, peaches

alright folks, we're down to less than a week. this weekend was crazy, full of new experiences but i loved it. i dont know why i was ever worried.
today is my bridal shoot, which i am very excited for because david and i chose the best photographers imaginable. i dont like getting my picture taken but amelia just talks to you and makes you feel like you're having a semi-normal conversation. i'm having maleah do my hair and everything is planned out so it should be good!
dad and david hung lights in the backyard and we lit it up last night, after a drumroll (christmas vacation style) and it looked amazing. very romantic.
also just in, trevor has moved back home because he was living with his friend and that kid's mom, who was 6 months behind on her rent. so much for his "freedom".
Wherefore, men are free according to the flesh; and call things are given them which are expedient unto man. And they are free to choose liberty and eternal life, through the great Mediator of all men, or to choose captivity and death, according to the captivity and power of the devil; for he seeketh that all men might be miserable like unto himself.
chew on that, little bro.

Journals

"I like his warmth and his being-there and his making jokes and stories and what he reads and how he shows his gladness for what I cook him and joy for when I make something, a poem or a cake, and how he is troubled when I am unhappy and wants to do anything so I can fight out my soul-battles and grow up with courage and a philosphical ease. I love his good smell and his body that fits with mine as if they were made in the same body-shop."

It's true. I do like these things, actually i love them and i can't wait to discover if all of these things are true when we're even closer than we are. (when we get our own bed peace and hair peace).
It's time to switch to SP's Journal again.

runaway bride

i'm so glad this weekend is over! it was wonderful, but sooo crazy. friday night we picked up amanda from the airport, after david, garen and i walked around victoria gardens and saw lady in the water. we decided to eat at fudruckers because everyone really likes it. mmm ranch and fries. i went home after because i was so tired. saturday morning i was planning on waking up at seven to do laundry but my mom woke me up before that because some fool had thrown a trash can at my car and it had shattered my back window. thanks, you retards who have no jobs or lives so you go around at night breaking people's things. so that was a nice way to start out the day of my bridal shower. i tried to push it away and got ready to pick hilary up from the airport. keiri came down early to go with us, and we all went to the dressmaker's house to have our dresses fitted. mines almost done, and every time i try it on i love it more and more. i'm so excited that i'm able to have my dream dress.
the shower was really fun, and nearly 50 people were there. we played a fun game and i opened presents FOREVER. it was so ridiculous. we got so much stuff! i was really thankful that david's family came. while we were at the shower, david, dustin and their dad were off golfing. it was kind of nice that they were gone, it gave me a chance to be with everyone. when we were loading up the presents, jordan and jasmin came home. i asked jasmin "what do you think is in there?" as i pointed to chelsea's little pregnant belly. "my ball" she replied.
saturday night i stayed at david's so me and amanda could bond. david went to bed early, so me and amanda talked for a while. we were sooo tired. i didnt sleep well because my back was hurting all night...vicodin didnt even help.
sunday we went to church, had bishops interview for our temple recommends, went home and ate fast, said goodbye to amanda, went to the patriarch's house and i got my patriarchal blessing, went to the stake center and had the stake president interview for our temple recommends. we got home and did some more invitations. and that, my friends, is what happens when you're getting married in three weeks. elope. no, seriously. elope.

22 or 3

i can't remember how many days are left. ok, it's starting to feel real. kind of. yesterday keiri came down, which i really really appreciate because i have a hard time with girls who are my friends, and depending on them. i just don't like to be let down. i haven't felt like anyone is really excited about me getting married but i've been pushing it away because that really doesn't matter. so, keiri dyed my hair for me, and we bonded. we were running really late and my first bridal shower ever started at 7...i kept thinking to myself, "it doesnt really matter if i'm late" but then i remembered that the shower was for me, so i needed to be there on time. the whole night was kind of a daze. i opened presents for an hour. it was ridiculous! we got so much stuff. by the end of the night i kind of got used to being the one all of the fuss was for. im just hoping that on saturday when i have another shower, i'll be more comfortable. i'm glad i only have to do this once. and it's not as fun as i thought it was going to be. it kind of just feels...like a weird dream.

office space

that's what i have. a little bit of space that's mine. its not an office, and it's not a cubicle, but just a few old desks pushed together with a view of a parking lot.
i didnt know when i started this job that i would be in charge of the entire office. i am in charge of creating the files that hold the reports that i type, i am the only one who does all of these things. what's crazy is that they expect me to know their procedures and how to do everything and how to catch every little thing in every report that THEY do wrong, make 4 extra copies, mail things, answer the phones, create the files. whatever, i can do all of these things, no problem. until my "review" this morning. i "met" the requirements for most areas of the review sheet (which was supposed to be filled out in may, as i was supposed to be reviewed in may, when the reviews were due) but there i am sitting in the little room, being told that i'm doing pretty good. until we got to communication. i guess i'm not the "type" to come into the office and walk around and say hi to all six people who work in here. (mind you, i get here every day at nine and leave every day at one). this really irks me. i have to practice coming in and walking around and telling everyone that i'm here, because they dont notice when i walk in the door and turn on the computer and answer the phones. i felt like i was being told to wear more flare. what an insignificant thing to focus on. flare flare flare. they're so busy they don't notice me. i just figure, i leave and come at the same time every day, they know they dont have to answer the phones when i'm here because i always answer on the first ring, and all they have to do is look up and see me. what a joke.